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Christmas Throwback

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Christmas for me is about spending time with family and making memories that will be remembered for years to come.  This year, I wanted to look back on old photos of myself and family and reminisce of times past.  At this time of the year, I’m stressed and worried about all of the work I have to do for classes and studying for finals.  Hell week leaves me feeling over my head, but I’m thankful to my mom for sending me these photos.  They remind me of all that I have to look forward to when I return home, which is exactly a week away now.  

When both my brother and I were little I remember laying in bed and whispering about when we thought Santa would come and he would gift us with that year. On Christmas Eve, we usually went to my stepdad’s family’s house, have a huge lobster dinner with fondue and at the end of the night, “Santa” would stop by and give us gifts.  One year, all of the girls received a huge Ulta makeup box, which influenced me getting into makeup and experimenting.  Those Christmas Eves were the ones I would remember the most, as they were so much fun!

On Christmas Eve, my brother and I would both be excited about seeing our first cousins, Madison and Brandon, who we love spending time with. We knew Christmas day would be filled with fun as we played with the toys we received from Santa and family alongside our cousins.  We’d listen to Christmas classics, giggle as we played and pick off bits of the turkey as my grandpa cooked it. When we had white Christmases we’d run outside to play in the snow, one time in bathing suits!

I really hope you are all having a lovely time this holiday season, and remember the important things in life.  Eat lots of cookies, cuddle up and watch as many festive films you can before the season is over, and most importantly, relax and be happy around those important to you.  

If you liked this post, please give a like or follow! Also, if you have any favorite Christmas memories, please share them in the comments below! I’d love to read about them 🙂



My Christmas Playlist

E8CF0BCC-8119-48D7-B47D-C094BC6BF4CCFor me personally, I believe playing Christmas playlist while you’re walking, driving or just chilling, during this time of year is perfectly acceptable.  Hell, if I’m gonna be honest, I started playing Christmas music on Halloween.  On one of my local radio stations, Christmas music begins playing nonstop starting on Thanksgiving.  I’ve created a Spotify Christmas playlist which I take requests for from my family members, similar to how I take requests from my uni friends for my “Party Tunes” playlist.  I always put it on shuffle and play it in the morning while I’m getting ready and then during the night time when I’m vegging out. So, with that said, check out the playlist on my Spotify under “Amber Canbek” and let me know if I’m missing any essential Christmas classics!

Retail therapy

(Coat – IZ Byer, Scarf – City Streets, Shirt – LA Hearts, Leggings – Maurices, Ring – Maurices, Shoes – East 5th)

October in upstate New York was mild, but as soon as November hit, it turned freaking cold! I didn’t have a winter jacket with me at school, so I decided to do some retail therapy. Taking time for myself to shop for an afternoon before my 2:30 class was something I really needed.  It took my mind off of a lot of things and during the shopping spree I bought a purse, a coat, jacket, gloves, Sweetbitter, and a moisturizer that I’ll be showing you all in a future post. So, with all of these new items I purchased, I thought I’d show you all some pictures of me wearing them in an OOTD-styled post.  These pictures were actually taken yesterday afternoon by my great friend Bobby (follow him on Insta I popped into the university’s cafe, which serves Starbucks coffee. #BLESSED. In this photo shoot I was actually sipping on a chestnut praline latte, if you were wondering. It was actually the first time I wore the City Streets scarf and the purse, which is by Colony One, but unfortunately I could not find the same bag online.  

For a college student that is constantly surrounded by basically the same things day-in and day-out, I think going out by yourself and enjoying whatever time you have off is a great way of self-care.  Sure, it left a bit of a dent in my bank account, but it was much needed.  Not only due to the fact that I didn’t have any winter clothes, but also because it helped me out mentally.  With finals around the corner and midterm grades lurking in the back of my mind, getting away from campus really helped me out.  

After I’ve finish posting this blog post, I will begin writing another book review, which you should be looking for within the next day or so.  Once that’s completed, I plan on finishing up a podcast that I’ve been working on for one of my classes.  Who knows? Maybe I’ll post the podcasts here once they’re done.  

Leave me a comment letting me know what you’re up to this weekend, and if you liked this blog post, please follow!

Love, Amber

Happy Halloween!

Hello everyone! I was hoping this post would go up before Halloween, but unfortunately some things have gotten in the way. I hope you’re all having fun celebrating with Halloween festivities.

For me, the hype leading up to Halloweekend was real and when it finally arrived I was stoked.  This year was the first time I celebrated Halloweekend at my school.  Freshman year I was a hermit, because the year before I had a somewhat bad experience during Halloweekend festivities happening at a different school. This year, though, I found Halloweekend as a way to have fun, spend time with friends, and not really worry about much else.         

Thursday night, I went to a Halloween party being thrown by a club at my school with my friend Emma as minions.  It was a cheap and easy costume to do, all you really need is a yellow or purple shirt, suspenders, and minion goggles.  I don’t have links to the items used as I didn’t purchase them and they were all thanks to Emma.  You can check out how the costumes turned out on my Instagram.

Friday night I went as one of the most basic Halloween costumes that every girl dressed up as last year: Harley Quinn from Suicide Squad.  I know, I’m a year late on the bandwagon. Whatever, though.  I had the shirt and jacket from last year and decided I might as well wear them and dress up as her.  All I really had to do was put my hair in pigtails, wear a bright red lip, do the face tattoos, and put blue and red/hot pink eyeshadow on the eyes.  A lot of people liked my costume, though, and I’m happy about that.  

On the last night of Halloweekend, I dressed up as a bunny, and no, I wouldn’t say it was sexy.  I still joked around, though and said it was my tribute to the deceased Hefner.  I got the lace bunny ears for $8 at Spirit Halloween and wore skinny jeans and a pale pink chunky knit sweater from Pacsun. For makeup I used a grey matte liquid lipstick, a primer to make my makeup last all night, and the Naked 2 palette.  I used the shade “Foxy” as a base, “Verve” on my lid and blended in “Pistol” in my crease. You can see the completed look on my Instagram.  

I hope you all have a fun Halloween! I’ll be cuddled up in bed watching Halloween themed movies with a hot cup of cider. BEST. NIGHT. EVER!

Daddy’s Little Monster shirt 
Property of the Joker jacket (could not find the exact same one on Hot Topic, but it’s sold elsewhere on eBay and other websites. There is a leather one on Hot Topic)
Lace bunny ears
Naked 2 palette
Benefit’s Porefessional Primer
Smashbox Liquid Lip in “Chill Zone”
Stila black eye liner
Sephora shadow in “Red Carpet” 
L’Oreal blue shadow duo (couldn’t find the same exact one)
MAC liquid lip in “Dance With Me” 


Food for thought?

Food is an essential to every one’s life, obviously, but our relationship with food varies and can affect us in many different ways.

The past few months, I’ve been trying to eat healthier and be more mindful of what I put into my body.  I started this journey in July and have lost 25 pounds so far, but I still have more to lose. Disclaimer, I’ve been losing this weight “the healthy way”, so to speak.  I do not have an eating disorder.  Through this journey, though, I’ve become more aware of my eating habits and my relationship with food.  So, on that note…

I was a chaotic eater.  I would not eat breakfast, or anything during the work day, so when I did eat, it would be unhealthy and more like a binge.  This usually happens during school and work days, but on days I have off, I just graze and don’t have set meal plans, unless I’m eating with my family. 

I ate particularly well throughout elementary and middle school, but then when high school rolled around, my meals became varied between eating too little and eating too much.  

One example of this, is when I didn’t eat breakfast before school, and didn’t eat anything during the school day, but instead just chugged water all day.  Then when tennis rolled around, and the team went to McDonald’s before the match, I would just eat a shit ton of fast food.  The thing is, I did not feel hungry at all during the day, so I thought that it was OK.  The second situation I can think of is more recent, as it happened last year during my first year at uni.  The only thing I ate all day was a sleeve of Saltine crackers, which I just grazed on throughout the day.  Needless to say, I ate like a 10 year old. Junk and snack foods were what I ate the majority of the time.  

I was always brought up to finish my meals, even one’s I did not like, but I was a fighter.  As a child, some nights I spent sitting at the dinner table looking at a plate full of food I did not want to eat (goulash and Hamburger Helper were the worst), missing my 8 o’clock episode of That’s So Raven.  My mom wanted me to finish what I had on my plate, and I understand why one would want their child to finish their meals, but when I left the environment of structured eating, I adopted unhealthy eating habits.  

It was during the spring of my freshman year in college when I got on the scale and was completely disgusted and disappointed with myself.  I knew that I did not like what I saw on the scale, so I decided to change for the better.  Alongside my mom during this past summer, we started to plan our meals around a healthy caloric intake diet, based on our age, height and weight. We did not have to count the calories and fruits and vegetables, which helped and made us eat healthier altogether.  

I’ve become more in tune with my eating habits and have become more aware of what I put into my body.  One of the things I love about my uni is that they have the nutritional facts on what they serve in the dining hall, so I’m able to plan my meals a week in advance if need be.  I like tracking my meals ahead of time, so I don’t go into the dining hall wondering what I should and shouldn’t eat, but already have it planned.  Before, I was afraid of food and thought of it more as a vice and now I’ve adopted a motto my grandfather told me about eating: Don’t live to eat, but eat to live.  

Although I’m still a distance from my goal weight, I am more confident in myself about getting there, as I’ve learned how to maintain a healthy diet, but still be able to enjoy food.  

So I guess this topic brings me to ask, what is your relationship with food? What do you like to eat? Are you adventurous or do you stick with what you know. Let me know in the comments below!   

October Goals

The picture is random, but it’s currently what I’m doing.  Relaxing with a Starbucks Cinnamon Almond Milk Macchiato. How basic of me, but despite it being a caffeinated beverage, it helps me slow down and enjoy.

With that said, let’s move on…

The month of September sucked for me. It was terrible and nothing seemed to be going the right way. I complained about the month frequently, to the point where I was annoyingly sorry for myself all the time. There were a lot of downs in school, within friend groups and even with family. So, I decided in the beginning of this month to make a list of goals to think about and try to achieve. This post is basically my list (with the exclusion of a few personal ones), and an update on what I’ve done so far.

1. Go on more walks. In the beginning of the school year and during the summer, I went on daily walks, as it was something I did to maintain my health. As the month of September went on, and as I got more miserable, I didn’t do it as much. Recently, though, I’ve gotten back into the habit of going on not-so-daily daily walks. My roommate and I try to go on walks on the trail around campus every Sunday as a little form of bonding. This afternoon, while I’m writing this, I actually plan on going on a walk with some friends after my last class of the day. Going on walks, either with friends or by myself, is a great stress reliever for me.

2. Lose 10 pounds by the end of the month. So far, I’ve lost five pounds, which I believe is a pretty damn good job so far! I haven’t been going to the gym as frequently as I’ve wanted to, but I always get a good night’s rest and I’ve only been eating when my body tells me that it’s hungry. Binge eating is something that I’ve had a problem with in the past, as well as not eating enough. So far, I believe I’ve maintained a healthy balance.

3. Blog more! I did not blog at all in the month of September, as I was procrastinating and pushing it off until October. Luckily, though, now it’s up and running and I’ve been posting frequently. Thank you for reading!

4. Get better grades! I did pretty well for myself when midterm grades came around. There were only two out of the six classes that I am taking that I believe I need to do better in. One of them is marketing, with the only thing keeping me down is my class participation grade, which is an F…whoops! I’ve been trying to speak up at least once per class, so hopefully I’ll have a higher grade by the end of the semester. The other class being management, which I just personally hate. It’s no offense to the professor or the grad student that helps teach the class, I’m just not doing too hot one the quizzes. I need to study more!

5. Plan my Thanksgiving vacation. Similar to how two of my friends came to my place for October break, I’m having one of my best friends come for Thanksgiving break, which I am super excited for! I want to plan out different things we can do together so I’m not scrambling for ideas when the time comes. I would also like to spend a bit more time with family over this break, unlike I did during the last break. Perhaps catch an episode or two of GoT with my mom before I head back off to college. I also have to plan out the things that I want to bring back home to drop off, and the things that I want to pick up from home to bring back to college with me. So far I’ve planned nothing…I need to get on that!

6. Write more! I know I write a lot for this blog (which is currently being graded), but I want to write a bit more creatively and perhaps start a personal journal. I used to journal every day and wrote creatively frequently. At the start of summer, journaling and creative writing ceased. This month, I want to get back into it. So far I haven’t started writing creatively this month, but I hope to do so by the end of it!

So those are my goals for the month of October! What do you want to achieve by the end of the month?

Autumn Favorites

The weather is turning a bit cold, the oversized cozy and warm sweaters are coming out, and I’m beginning to spend my nights with my fingers wrapped around a warm beverage watching Halloween movies or reading a book.  Fall is my favorite season for many reasons.  I love the colors, the scents, and tastes in this season more than any other.  Not to mention I enjoy having an excuse to stay inside a bit more. “Oh, it’s too cold!” Due to these reasons, I’ve decided to create a list of what I’m loving at this particular time, and what I believe makes fall most enjoyable.


As the colder months roll around, though, I have to up my skincare game.  My hands become dry and I just need more moisturization over all.  So I make sure to have lotion somewhere on hand at all times, whether it be my desk/bedside, backpack, or my evening purse.  Also, since I’m on a bit of a health kick as of late, I have found that wearing sweet smelling hand lotions helps me not indulge as much.  It’s probably all in my head, right? I’ve also switched out my body wash to a more fall themed scent.  While we’re on the topic of scents, I thought I might as well include the scents that I’ve been plopping into my wax warmer.  Unfortunately, since I live in a dorm room I cannot appreciate a regular candle.  


Another thing which I thoroughly enjoy during the fall is the vampy makeup, which I feel like I can only wear during this particular season.  For my eyes I have been using the Lime Crime Venus palette which is filled with warm toned hues, perfect for fall. I’ve also been using the Kat Von D tattoo liner for a bold wing which lasts all day and night; perfect for the busy college gal who has no time for touch-ups! To get the I’ve-been-dead-for-over-a-century chiseled cheekbones trend (ya know what I’m talking about, right?) I’ve been using NARS Laguna bronzer.  I know what the makeup experts say about not using bronzers as contour, but I suppose I’ve always been a rebel. Who gives? On my lips I have been enjoying the MAC matte lipstick in the shade Studded Kiss. For my manicure, I’ve been loving the Essie shade “Wicked.”  Vampy queen of the dead, who? #IDon’tKnowHer


WARM DRINKS! …sorry about that. I don’t know what came over me. A burst of passion, I suppose.  Warm fall flavored drinks are my life blood during the fall season.  Since I’m transitioning from coffee to tea during the mornings, I’ve been loving these three particular seasonal teas.  Celestial always have amazing seasonal flavors, and this month I have picked up the Caramel Apple Dream and Vermont Maple Ginger from my local Walmart.  They taste and smell amazing! Another tea that has been a fall favorite of mine for years now is the Trader Joe’s Spiced Chai tea.  I don’t really have a Trader Joe’s near me, so whenever a trip is made, this tea is on the shopping list! Not to mention, the packaging on all of these teas are hella cute.

One of my all time favorites, though, are the crisp and cozy nights spent cuddled with a blanket watching my favorite seasonal films, which include: The Corpse Bride, Practical Magic, Hocus Pocus, Halloweentown and the Twilight series.  I can’t wait for FreeForm to start doing their 13 Nights of Halloween. You can check out their 2017 movie schedule here.  What are your Autumn favorites? Let me know in the comments!

Bath & Body Works lotion
Bath & Body Works wax melt (couldn’t find the one I bought, but here’s one similar)
Ulta Pumpkin Shower gel
Essie “Wicked” polish
Lime Crime Venus Eye Palette
NARS Laguna bronzer
Kat Von D tattoo liner
MAC matte “Studded Kiss” lipstick
Celestial Caramel Apple Dream tea
Celestial Vermont Maple Ginger tea
Trader Joe’s Spiced Chai tea


Pumpkin Picking

This past weekend during midterm break, I invited a couple of my friends to go back to my hometown with me. Whilst we were there we drove to a local farm to get pumpkins. Unfortunately, they were closed. So, we went to go picking apple at Fruit Valley to get my mom some macs. Little did I realize, they had pumpkins there as well! I did not get any photos of us picking apples, but I got tons of us with the pumpkins. It had been raining all day and it was becoming a bit late in the afternoon, so I called ahead to make sure the places I had in mind were open. Two of the three were closed for picking, so Fruit Valley was our saving grace! I’ve gone to Fruit Valley several times in the past with my family, and I have always loved it there.

When we arrived it was pretty obvious that Fruit Valley was better known for their apple orchard than their pumpkins. Although they had an amazing assortment of Halloween carving pumpkins, they did not have a good number of smaller pumpkins, which I had in mind to decorate my dorm room. I did manage to find some pumpkins that I liked, though, as I ended up getting two large Halloween pumpkins for my family to put in front of our door, and three small baby pumpkins to scatter around my dorm room, which were actually the last three! And of course, we got a full bag of mac apples.

Whether you want to pick your own pumpkins, apples, or you just simply want to stroll through the fields on an autumn day, I would definitely recommend a pick-your-own farm!